I'm so contradicting.
I yearn for it, yet i'm unwilling to accept it.

I don't worth..?
Get on with your life,
and i'll try to move on with mine.

Hey.
bought new sch shoes frm everlast (:
half way thru chemistry,
starting on maths.
hope i can catch up fr maths.

but even if i studied,
i dont think i can score well..
damn.

i'm so looking frward to after eoy.
Outings.
Chalet.
Work @ Marriott.

{♥}

What does it mean by a wrongful death?..

I feel so happy when my phone beeps.
Hahas, that's so despo.
but it sucks because its another distraction from my studying :X
oh well. :D
i miss the memories :X
let's create more! :D

Yay me! :D
i'm done with Social Studies too.
Now i'm just left with Chemistry and Maths :X
shit. im so screwed fr maths laas
freaking maths is killing me.

hahas:D
Sentosa trip after eoy with everdogs and some 304 people:D
yayayayayayayay! :D
hahahs.
stupid cramps ):
so difficult to study with cramps.
damn it!

:D
awww.

#1 LOVE :D
Jann Jiyin Crystal Lionel Chenyou Joshua Avel Hongkoon
Caixiong Engliang Yanqing Merlyn Elaine Thomas

HAHAS!
im looking frward to events after eoy:D
2more weeks to the end of EOY :D
YAY!
now's the time to study :D
{♥}

Indecisive.
Thinking about the past sucks. D:

Seriously
life sucks.
It's such a bore and it feels so meaningless.
All day long, i think about, study, eoy and stupid tests.
Gosh, what else.
Oh and i think of money
and how to not be tired and help my mum in th shop.
OH! And how NOT to fail my exams.
So that i dont retain.

damn it.
I go to school > I have lunch > I go to the shop > I go home > I study ? I sleep
and the cycle just starts from step1!

damn it.
DAMN IT!
fuck this.. seriously.

cant all this shit just end?
GOSH! There's trigo test tmr,
and i've no calculator to study.
DAMNIT!

{♥}

I demand:
A chalet with Everdogs:D
An outing with Weijie, Xavier And edel:D
An ice skating trip with everdogs.

And i dont rmb anymore.
hahas!

i hope i'd still be on th list on invitation:D

Hey!
EOY is coming around the corner.
No time to blog.

So i'll be back after eoy :D
Revision is going.. not so well.

Completed Biology and History notes.
but havent started on maths. which is the most brainrackings subjects.

Got back Maths test today,
at first when i got back the marks,
i was kinda disappointed.. 15/25.
and i was kind of confused how i minused so many marks.
so i showed mr lee my solution,
and he realised there was two answers:D
and i added 8 marks! :D
so i got 23/25! YAY!

hahas, happy.
but my chinese test, i minused lyk 3to4 marks..
cos of chengyu and yanyu. damn it. :X

hahas.
tmr's lantern festival.
gng to aunt house to have dinner.
:D

{♥)

i hope the dancers will really WANT to learn the dance,
and not let th seniors down,
esp when they have managed to clinch 2 gold w/ honours.
really, we shld be proud that we're in XMCD.

and this zuhe isnt difficult if u try to rmb.
i knw the sec1s feel left out
because they're not given attention,
but that's because you are not working hard fr it.

well, just hope that wernchieh's speech inspired you all
to do your best fr this dance troupe.

dont sit there and chit chat,
even though i knw th grp of us do too.
but at least, do ur best to learn th dance moves.
if u dnt knw, ask
if u knw, teach.
that's simple and easy to understand.

don't be afraid that u may "teach others the wrong things"
we shldnt be so bei dong.
i knw my dance sucks too,
but at least try,
bcos i really dnt want to disappoint the seniors.

th day they stepped down,
i see that they really have high hopes on us,
wishing we wil get gold w/ honours.
but look at the dance troupe now.
i think we really need to reflect on how much effort we have put in.

non-syf dancers,
i knw hw u all feel,
it seem like ure not important because ure not chosen,
and u feel inferior, and it feels pointles to go fr dance,
but esp the sec1s, you have the chance to dance in syf in 2 yrs tym.

the seniors who want to go,
dont have the chance,
and in years to come,
u will be the one leading,
you will be the one trying so hard to teach ur juniors th dance,
and u will knw hw difficult it is.
so please cooperate.

if u think doing this zuhe is pointless, ure wrong.
if we dnt do this, hw can we be able to perform
a much more diff dance than this?

let's try our best:D

and i love the dancers:D
hahas. claudia best junior! hahahas:D

Helloo!
Yesterday was my brother, jiaming's birthday,
head to Newyork newyork after dance, and ate MEAT PLATTER!
HOT PLATE SPAGHETTI, FISH AND CHIP SPAGHETTI, and more:O
omgosh, so darn delicious!!! gahhh! :D

went to ntuc and fooled aroundd and went back home.
cldnt study bcos there was not enough tym,
and i was so tired.

today :D
Went to school.
lessons were boring.
and im surprised i managed to stay awake until 2nd last lesson
which is history.
i feel guilty slping in class, but i cant help it either.
sorry mrs goh :O
but she was nice enough to let me slp.
woke up 5mins before the lesson end and did sme notes.

ss, went to toilet,
and the rest waited.
ended up, 10 of us were late fr class fr 15mins.
and mr tan got pissed off.

he sent us to the detention area,

we were singing,
reciting maths properties
doing lots of shit,
hahas!

and then mr tan came and had an "inspiring" speech
which took 2mins.
he said he wasn't angry.
and i replied "THATS A LIE!"
hahas, dumbness.
how cld he nt be angry when he seriously flared up

then we left fr lunch.
me, jiyin and merlyn bought processed food again.
went to dance late,
and changed etc.
not feeling well, so didnt do the jumps.

then she did syf dance twice,
but she didn't teach anth.

did th zuhe again.
and it's really nice to dance:D
but many people just cant do it properly,
and i think im one of them.
i just cant get the ganjue right.

so, teached them hw to dance aft ZLS left.
and could see that wernchieh was really disappointed.

{♥}

Hey!
I'm having motivation to study,
but it seems like this week is packed.
MotherTongue test,
Biology Test,
Amaths Test,
Emaths Test,
Literature essay,
SS forum

Argh. this sucks.
i hate it when the week is packed with things to do,
because i'll never be able to complete! rarhh!
gosh, there goes my study plans fr EOY ):


Im eating veggie and drinking cold water,
WHILE STUDYING :D AND BLOGGING! cool beans:D

{♥}

Hey!
Friday went to starbucks @ Compass
with Ms lie Weisze Rachael Jithui Amanda and Brandon.
blabla. we had our remedial there.
and ms lie offered us coffee but only rachael and weisze bought.
amanda was so funny
she kept trying to mouth the word "NAFA"
and i didnt understand wht she was saying. hahas
end up she msg me say she have to go nafa.
lols, and we told ms lie. hahas.

after that, went home for a short nap :X
and helped mum th whole day. :D

Saturday:D yesterday! :D
Went to yanqing house with
Lionel and joshua.
Didnt dare to go in her house lohs.
one of the dogs dash out of her house when she tried to open th door.
and i kept hiding behind lionel.
lols, joshua was worse, he stood so far away! hahas

after some time,
yq's sis carried both th dogs and i ran into her room. lols
damn funny, because joshua was super scared of the dogs too

engliang came after a few mins.
and he wasnt even scared of them,-.-
he just said they were very "wet" lols.

the dogs dashed into yq's room
and joshua tried to hide into a small corner between th wall and cupboard. hahas
super funny. omgosh, i laughed mad.

tipper and xiaobao are so cutee.
but they keep freaking me out.
because they bark fr no apparent reason.
i keep jerking like no tomorrow-.-
and the guys kept laughing.
hahas. joshua dont even dare to step down th bed!

I love tipper!
so darn cute. i pat it and help it "tickle". hahas!
omgosh, and he was so happy.
after that xiaobao came in, and i was like patting th both of them
and then they both got jealous and started fighting RIGHT BSIDE ME!
i freaked out-.-
and screamed for yanqing. lols!
and she scolded them. haahas

when joshua and lionel were leaving,
yq went to the toilet.

joshua opened the door and the dogs started chasing after him.
lols! super funny and hilarious.
he got chased by BOTH th dogs.
and he ran into the toilet because he was urgent.
AND HE SAW YANQING INSIDE TH TOILET-.-
lols! he ran full speed back into th room
and told us about it.
damn funny! lols, all of us laughed lyk crazy
and he said it was so awkward
hahas!

then yanqing knocked on th room door
YQ: "KAI MEN LA!"
J: "omgosh... so awkard *cover face*"
hahhahas! super funny. lols.

lionel and joshua left.
leaving me engliang and yq.
engliang stole my bio book and read thru=.=

Engliang go pat xiaobao like dk wad.
and xiaobao looks fat and fake. hahahs!
engliang say xiaobao gave him th
"wah, jin song" face. hahahas.
dumbness.
and xiaobao loved engliang so much-.-
hahahas. super funny. omgosh

after that, he left at 4.30pm SHARP
and me and yq had HTH talk.
watched some tv.
and xiaobao licked my hands-.-
because i pat it.
and tipper was so far away, so darn restless. hahahs
cute!!!
when i was leaving,
yq's maid had to put xiaobao up th chair
because its scared of heights.
haahhas.

and tipper sent me out
hahaha! omgosh so darn cute.

Went to tampines mall
and got my new phone and finally signed plan.
yay! i love th new phone. its so pretty!
Nokia E5-00 :D
hahahas!

went to hav dinner.
and it wasnt very nice-.-

left home and slept at 1am.

today:
woke at 10am to go to th shop
while mum and sis were slping-.-
now i'm back home waiting for
Bitch Wong and crystal to come:D
hahas.

{♥}

Today's date holds some memories.

Went to school early fr remedial.
Koh was late! and she waited fr cab fr 45mins-.-
left with toylene to buy some beehoon
and ate in canteen with koh and foo.
ZLS was sitting at the other end, msging-.-

went to dance room
and was so bored,
bcos ZLS was only teaching peijun.
so Koh, Foo and I went to see if 304 were playing games alr.
saw them at soccer court :O

went back fr dance.
and learnt sme steps.
it's so stupid to realise that after 3days, we have only progressed this much-.-
well, left fr lunch with th guys
and went back class fr gambling-.-

lost money to junren,
but im so gna win it back!

left to xinnovate fr maths
and was INVITED out by Mrlee to the library
to do our emaths homework.
i'm so clever:D i taught them hw to do :D
hahaas, k wadeva:X

Left fr captain ball.
played with Guys VS Girls.
the guys were such cheaters.
they never stand 3feet away
they keep whacking ball out of our hands
ended up we play cheat with them,
but we stil lost. :O
even though th guys were outnumbered, they still won-.-

after that some conflicts,
and played Whacko.
followed by iceandwater.
gosh, so dumb. hahas

then played Disease.
and left to buy food.
went to AVA theatree and watched a horror movie.
it was kind of dumb,
but pretty scary-.- for me.

i kept shivering at dinner.
and they kept laughing.

elaine walked to busstop with me,
and she waited fr XH.
came home. DONT DARE SHOWER ):

stupid movie!
{♥}

i think it was more of a gaze
than a "look-at-me" look.
because that'll never happen on the both of us (:

although i've been told about this "look" many times
i still cant bring myself to think that its true
because it'll only bring great disappointment.
and that person's such an asshole,
i dont think i'll want to expect anth from it.

-:DDDD-

Hey.
Had dance today
and it was so darn boring.
gosh, we haven't progress since yesterday-.-

went fr lunch
and went fr maths remedial.
saw 411 people.

yanqing told me somethings.
and i dont believe her.
that person is darn asshole.

left to hougang green fr lunch/dinner.
and helped mum.
so damn tired, idk why
my panda eyes are popping out ):

there's maths"camp" tmr,
and i want to stay over,
but mr lee say cannot ): asshole.
darn it, there's horror movie,
and i dnt want to sit beside caixiong or engliang-.-
lols, their gna freak me out like mad.

for now. toodles.
i've jus racked my brains
trying to do maths,
and i didnt complete much,
I CANT DO SIMPLE TRIGONOMETRY!
{♥}

Those clues are so darn misleading.
and its so vague i dont even have much lead.
gosh, ure suchan asshole.
trying to trick ur way through more and more clues.
well, i dont understand why
ure being so "shy" or whatsoever.
hahas, just say it, because those three words
are the most important
to start everything. it's the spark to the fire:D

I think i'm sure about my decision. :O
and i'm not gna be soft-hearted
because we have no future
there's nothing in front for me to look forward to..

there's no future,
there wont be any outcome.
we may be said as the perfect match
and that may be the reason why we ended up lik this

well, maybe we're just influenced by what others say
i'm willing to sacrifice everything. not anymore
because, all that i'm doing seem to be stupid and unnecessary
because i'm not needed. :D

Claudia,
it's not that i can handle it well,
it's just that i have enough time to react to the problems
and maybe it's just that i am able to handle it rationally,
and i'm able to see that,
the situation may not be that bad.

well, maybe u havent seen me really lost in a situation
and see how bad i felt.
that's just because i dont show it.
and that there are many friends around me
that can make me feel so much better and needed.
:DD

Claudia, make the right choice. :D
ILY:D

Hey.
Today was.. not so great.
Had dance and it was super boring.
we're progressing so slowly i doubt we can complete th dance fr SYF

5 people were chosen for th start,
Peijun Merlyn Zhiping Toylene Eunise.

the rest left fr yuanchang,
and zy pms-ed and gave attitude _l_
hmmm..
so we went back to dance room,
and she started teaching th many people part,
and it was really lame-.-
she took so darn long to teach so little.

blahblah.
went fr lunch with claudia merlyn and eunise
ate cupnoodles at study corner
and left fr maths remedial
it was kind of boring.
and hard to understand.
couldnt catch wad LKM was saying ):

went to mac with lionel cy and thomas.
ate fries
and talked to jann :D

went home
and played mahjong with sister's friend.
and won $7.50 :D
but i stil owe sis money, so im deducting frm there-.-

hmmm. tried to do trigo worksheet
and i seriously feel like tearing the paper!

trigo is killing me. i think nt just me, it's everyone.
hate trigo!
{♥}

Heyys.

Yesterday:
Height n Weight taking.
I shrunk ): and i grew fat! ):
omgosh! irritating! :X

Went to Hougang point after lesson
with YQ Merlyn Lionel Joshua CY Thomas
Crys Jerry Dex Donovan Xavier.

Crys n I went Jerry's house
and watched 90210. AGAIN! :O
Went home with crys.
chit chat about some things.

rushed down to meet jiejie
and bro-in-law fetched us to bishan mrt.
matthias' hands got caught in th Candy thing.
omgosh, didnt knw wht to do,
jiejie pulled out th whole plastic :O

Went to Charcoal
and had dinner. It was nice for me,
But Biaojie kept saying it's not nice.
So disappointing for Erjie. :O

Stupid "mad person" kept disturbing me.. :O
and the fat fat damn cute! hahahas!
the deon's hands were "eeeew, pain"
arghh, oh yeahs. and poor nat :O
the girl was super cute
hahahas!

went fr dessert,
and left home with them
erjie told me about some stories.
and EEEW SHE'S(my sister's friend) DAMN DISGUSTING :O
okay, whatever :D

slept late ): at 1am.
and i realised i had remedial

Today:
Went to sch late.
but i was earlier than MrLeekm :D
So i'm NOT late! :D
hahas, maths remedial was super funny
when MrLee started singing the "rhyme"
hahahas. laughed like mad lohs :O

went to amkhub with
Merlyn Lionel Joshua CY Thomas Engliang Pet
watched tom n jerry on engliang's ipod:D
ahahs, and listened to his songs.

bought shoes with merlyn
and rushed back to th shop
because mum's not feeling well.
didnt get to have lunch with them.

reached shop, blend like crazy-.-
seriously very tired,
but earned alot :D
more than $300plus collected
cool beans! :D

argh didn't get to rest at all ):
now i'm so lazy i dont feel like showering ):

failure

I feel like a failure
i just cant do splits and im not flexible enough
omgosh, this sucks ):

I hate it when im getting confused,
and when it starts to waver. ):
omgosh, where's my motivation to study
why am i distracted by this. ARGHHH! ):

FOOD!♥

I need foood in class to keep me awake and attentive.
that's a bad sign, means i'm gna grow fat ):
gosh! evil food! evil temptations! AHHHHHH!
I just ate 16g of fat from Mc Chicken today ):
and Yejohn had 62g of fats :D

YAY ME (Y)

Stupid group of sec1s from our sch
pointed middle finger at dk who,
but it was meant fr th grp of us,
so i was screaming at them with sarcasm,
while one tried to act like a gangster
and took out his phone,
apparently looking for his "back-up"
but instead, comes awwwwwww...
Green haro bike and little boys
who seem to be still breast-feeded by their mum.

crazy sec1s have nothing better to do,
they just spoiled my mood,
because its been so long since i last scolded someone-.-

{♥}

I'm not Proud of IT
but i knw i'm much happier
at least i feel better.
well, it's not as if u were th only one hurt,
stop scolding me and reprimanding me in sarcastic ways
because of this incident.
i dont like it this way either.
but it has proven that it is a better way out.

{♥}

Hey.
Chenyou Lionel Joshua and Avel came over to my house today
studied and they played cards.
completed a few chapters of biology notes:D

they made me laughed lyk mad,
and they kept disturbing jm jq.
irritating! you all stop teaching damn bad things!
leading them astray! :O

they were crazy during th Big2 games
laughed threw cards,
until their stomach all pain

freaking hot weather today! ):

sad much.
J wanted to come over,
but figured it was quite awkward,
there's always a second chance.

{♥}

Hey.
Chenyou Lionel Joshua and Avel came over to my house today
studied and they played cards.
completed a few chapters of biology notes:D

they made me laughed lyk mad,
and they kept disturbing jm jq.
irritating! you all stop teaching damn bad things!
leading them astray! :O

they were crazy during th Big2 games
laughed threw cards,
until their stomach all pain

freaking hot weather today! ):

sad much.
J wanted to come over,
but figured it was quite awkward,
there's always a second chance.

{♥}