I'm gna ne emotionless soon
gosh, i think i'm mad.
i had consecutive of more than 5 nightmares
in my sleep and each lasted for only 5minutes.
wth is this=.= then i had insomnia and i cldnt sleep.
(O(oo)O)

Heyyo.
Lessons were... okayyy.
Maths was super irritating.
Mr lee kept saying and i didnt understand anth.

english
Ms ross rejected our script..
She said it was too graphic and not relevant ):
So irritating. zzz

Chinese.
Normal. Phan keeps teaching abt th same things.
Really boring ):

PE.
Played badminton with Elaine YQ Merlyn.
AND YAY~
i got th red 65th anniversary shirt. hahas
:D

Went to hgang point with
Jann JY Merlyn Avel.
Ate my noodles:D
and went home straight.
Slept with Jm n Jq.
And waked them up :D

Cooked them noodles.
And then fed them food.
Feeding them is lyk super tired! wth!
but nvm, i finally fed all th food to them :O
Yay me! :D

{♥}

Even if there's smthing i have to say.
There's no one to speak to.
I've realised tht there's no one to confide to
I realised that i'm able to listen to others,
help them in their problems. tell them what's wrong.
but when it comes to me,
i cant do anything about it.

Even if it seems lyk there are many friends arnd.
I cant tel them evrything.
family,friends,secrets. idk.
im finding stress bombarding me
to th point where i smetyms feel that evrything should end.
goodness, im lyk a diff person in reality and behind th com.
maybe when im alone, i dont have to act that way :O

Well,
Let me tell you how i feel,
since you really want to know so much.

I dont think you're th extreme bad friend that i dont want to have.
but i always feel irritated by you.
i dont know why, but whenever we're privately tgr,
i dont feel that way. maybe you're just Different when
we're privately tgr and when everyone's around.

Jy did not really mean that we were right
when she wrote that in her blog
Crys did mean what she say at ur hse.
Jann did feel awkward because u didnt speak to her during vball
and left her sitting alone.

to you, it may be us that have left you,
but u have actually found better friends that WILL be there fr you
and u seem very happy fr that fact.

Well, reasons fr why i get irritated
accumulated since sec2 i guess.
i realised how close we were in sec 1
only after reading my old diaries.
but well, u claimed that Jann n I
left you out after th change in sitting arrangement
and that's when evrythng started to change.

Homecoming '09
i was really angry that day,
when you and crys accused me of NOT trusting you.
and u even told them that u didnt wan to call me over fr class photo
but came over smiling "TOLERATING me" and
persuading me to take th class photo
when i left, no one helped except chenyou.

Quarrel
you dragged all of them away.
and obviously, anyone would be angry.
And th trashin session obviously pissed me off alot
it DIDNT help in pulling us back tgr.
and to say th truth, it was actually Jann
that persuaded me back to you people.
bcause i didnt wan to feel awkward in dance with jiyin
bcause i didnt wan jann to be sandwiched in bwtwn

Whatever u said during th trashing session
i remembered very clearly. and things that u said
were really hurtful but i didnt think u felt that way.
yeahs, its okay that u feel that way but i'm just pissed
i think th way ure expressing it is just totally diff fr me to accept.

Plus, you said that th whole trashing session was
decided by th 4 of you,
but it seemed that u were th only one talking all about it.
and th childishness in wht u said, at least u realised.
u said u feel guilty about it, well, good that you do.
but things arent gna be the same as before
after what you did that lost ALL th trust that we built up fr 2years.

Games Marathon day,
even though it seemed lyk th clique is okay tgr,
but to me, it was all fr th sake of winning th matches that i went.
i didnt want to go at first, bcos jann wasnt going
and i didnt want to be in a same team as th 4 of you.
things didnt change during tht day if it seemed lyk it did.

many tyms, i would get really irritated by th way u act,
but i dont say, and lyk you all said "endurance is th key"
but things really bottled up and reached to a point where
even when i try to tell myself "friendship fr 3 years shldnt end lyk this"
it didnt work at all. and whenever i told myself
"we can still be friends" i feel lyk i just cntradicted myself

situation are awkward,
even at th busstop,
we have nothing to say, we're just thre to wait fr ea other and E
go in tgr, and go seperate ways.
You seem happy with them,
and you dont seem to do anything about it to,
i dont understand about th part where u said we didnt have th courage to
take th first step, because i dont see a point in doing so,
bcause things seem better for you.

I hate it when u tel me u hate J right in my face
and dont feel anything wrong about what you say.
and when i told u i didnt lyk E,
u just shouted in my face that i was being insensitive.
well, thats what u did to me too.

i ain't getting back at you fr what u did in th past,
because i dont think i was much affected by th situation.
i admit, i did cry over th situation,
but i figured that what's gone is gone
and th trust can never be gained back.

but i got to say that,
you're a good friend when we're privately tgr,
but whenever it comes to a whole group of friends,
you just became another stranger.

i didnt want to tel you how i feel,
because i know it wouldn't help in th situation
because i've goen through that before.
but i just got to tel you,
i ain't getting back at you

and i dont think i have such powers
to influence evryone in thinking hw i feel to get back at you.
plus things cld hve gtten better
if you didnt join them and ignore th situation.
Thats how th rest of them feel, but nt me.

good that you're happy with them around
{♥}

Hey.
Today's lessons were draggy
Mr lee was damn funny.
Talked about shisha smoking etc.
and he was using my BOTTLE as demonstration! EEEW!
all his saliva on it ):
i think i didnt drink any water frm there aft that :O
hahas!

Chem test on moles, failed really badly,
i expected myself to at least pass,
because i could do all th questions that MrsNg gave.
i think its just that i didnt hav tym to prac before th test. ):

I was pretty lucky today
Yingyongwen test was on violence on television programmes.
and i read it on Dou Hao today.
i almost didnt want to read it, luckily (: hahahas

Left to eat aft sch today with
Yejohn CY thomas Joshua Lionel.
Lionel was in sucha bad mood,
shared food with him
and heared him complain all about his Media Club.
Thomas was damn retarded when lionel said
Lionel "i didnt even want to go, its only bcause of you (n someothers)"
Thomas "Omgosh, i feel so honoured" =.=
lols! retarded people, but i love them! (:

Went to soccer court with them,
and decided to go back to sch's bball court
Ended up bball court was full
so played at th small "court-looking thing"
hahas, IM A GREAT GOAL KEEPER!
better than jiyin and crystal! HAHAHS:D

yay! went to canteen
and rest fr awhile. left home
and saw many people at th busstop
took th same bus as them
and nicholas was so funny.
he so nice ehs, keep asking me lie on his
SMELLY shoulder, WET shirt, FLAT chest, DIRTY legs.
hahas. bt thanks fr offering. hahas.

{♥}

Heyyo!
Lessons today were super boring ):
felt lyk slping throughout th whole day
MERLYN KOH TICKLED ME THROUGHT WHOLE HISTORY LESSON!
and YQ, Elaine and Arleen were mad crazy during SS
hahas! damn funny, i laughed lyk mad.
got super high! HAHAS

Went to opp coffeeshop fr lunch with
YQ elaine JY merlyn Zoey (:
STUPID MOTH SCARED ALL OF US
except dumb mong! hahas!

Went fr dance,
did side split only bcos leg's injured. :O
and did some xiayao :D

did th dance that ZLS taught us 1 week ago.
i was really tired, so slaked abit..
left to canteen fr food with Qianqian Zoey n Jiyin(:
ate mango pudding:D

ran up bcos qq and zoey had to do Taoyao.
took out contacts ): my eyes were burning.
suddenly ZLS called me in,
and i did Taoyao too! :D
so happy hahahs! (Y)

but coulndt get in to th idk whats tht called
th "看朋友看朋友" thing. hahas!
did with jingyi,
bt daphne took my place. hahas!

yay cool beans. im happy today.
hahas. :D

{♥}

Yay(Y)
i need to work on jibengong.
and ZLS said that without jibengong,
we wont be able to get into SYF dance ):
gosh, that means im not gna get it laas.
okay, whatever. there goes all my chance=.=

oh yeahs,
im NOT softribs!
rarhh! say one more tym,
i poke u and tickle you lyk mad
lyk wad happened to you today! hahas!

and sherman,
we'll always be there(:
give urself some tym,
and please, get ur self-esteem high.
and be confident in urself.
please, take care of urself.
because evrything lies on urself.
i cant change hw ur mind thinks,
its all in ur head, mentally.
you need to learn hw to speak to others,
and not bottle evrything to yourself(:
dont matter what others say, bcause they're just JEALOUS OF YOU :D

♥

maybe this should end.
now. soon. later. never.
i dont know. but,
this should end.
because, it ain't getting no where.

Hey Crystal!

Dont be sad okay.
Whats gone is gone, no point grabbing on to th past.
Just forget about it.

But you really ought to think what caused it to happen.
im serious, u need to know what's wrong
and you should find out urself if u can.

and we will always be there:D
everdogs, ur fengfeng. hahas. everyone(:
dont have to put on a strong front.
i know u are. my observation skills are getting better(:

alright, seriously.
you KNOW that 201 guys and US will always be there
so stop bottling ur emotions and let it off.
it would be better to let it all out
especially when there's friends there for you(:

{♥}

Hey,
today's dance was really painful,
toylene helped me do splits
and it hurt ):

madness, my right leg bone
just goes against me.
and i cant split thanks to that BONE!
argh, bt i misssed th extremely pain-looking thing :O
merlyn ure so damn sick! how did u do all those! HAHAS

oh yeahs, did th huangshou thing. lols
its so damn retarded, and difficult to remember
it all seem to be th same move :O

chat with jiyin at th busstop :O

cool beans,
yx's girlf is so prettaye and cute looking. hahas

and im damn pissed at 311 guys!
You guys are freaking immature,
and totally insensitive towards situation.
you think ganging up on someone is cool or smth?
you ppl are idiots who are giving in to peer pressure.
imagine urself in his shoes,
i bet u people would go crazy.
just grow up and stop ur childish acts fr goodness sake la.

{♥}

Hey!
Went to do our English documentary today
Got our storyline out alr.
AND I DID DO IF YOU'RE READING IT NOW!

Lionel Thomas Yejohn Chenyou n Engliang:O
Engliang left after awhile since he had tuition
and th Librarian kept scolding us
bcause they were laughing so madly :O

Very irritated by Chiang Yejohn
YEJOHN I KNW URE READING IT!
ASSHOLE! U BLOODY SHYT!
RARHHHHHHHHH!

They went to arcade,
and i went to buy my food.
Left to find lionel's bottle
and left to hgang mall with him.
Bought food fr my bros
and hurried home.
th noodle dried out ):
and it became so soft :O

AND LET ME TEL YOU THIS
IT ISNT TH FIRST TYM
I FCUKING HATE YOU.
ITS DEFINETELY NOT THE FIRST,
BUT THIS TYM ITS TH WORSE.
I HATE YOU LYK SHYT
BECAUSE URE DAMN IRRITATING
AND U THINK URE HILARIOUS.

ITS DAMN IRRITATING WHEN U SAY IM DISGUSTING YOU
AND U SAY IM BEING AN AHLIAN
WHEN URE SMOKING LYK NOBODY'S BUSINESS.

AND U THINK URE NOT DISGUSTING?
OH PLEASE, GET A LIFE ON UR OWN.
LIVE ON CIGARATTES.
KILL YOUR BODY WITH SUCHA STUPID AND DISGUSTING WAY

AND GO AHEAD WITH TATOO-ING UR WHOLE BODY
SO THAT U'LL COOL AND WADSOEVER.
AT LEAST IM NOT LYK U.
IM HAPPY THAT IM NOT.

AT LEAST I FEEL BETTER!

SERIOUSLY.
FUCK YOU! STOP STALKING MY BLOGLYK A BITCH
AND SAY U WAN TO LISTEN TO WAD I HAVE TO SAY
AND STOP ME FROM SPEAKING WITH UR DISGUSTING VOICE

STOP SLAPPING ME AND USING VIOLENCE ON ME
SINCE IT WONT WORK ANYMORE,
FINE. CURFEW?
IDONTCARE. BAD RESULTS
I DONT CARE EITHER
SINCE U CANT EVEN STUDY FR URSELF,
AND UR RESULTS SUCK LYK SHYT

U SAY I SPEND MORE MONEY THAN U
HAH! EVEN YOUR BLOODY COOKING CLASS WASTED THOUSANDS
RP WASTED MONEY.
YOU THINK URE THAT SUCCESSFUL?

BE SUCH A NICE DAUGHTER
AND HELP OUT EVERYDAY
AND THEN U CAN QUIT SCHOOLING
AND HELP MUM EVERYDAY EVERY SECOND
WONT U JUST BE A GOOD GIRL!

AND I'LL JUST FAIL IN ALL MY SBJECTS
AND WHENEVER I SAY I WANA STUDY
I'LL RUN TO JERRY'S HOUSE
AND WAD? HAVE SEX IS IT!
FUCK THIS OKAY!
DONT THINK IM AN IDIOT,
IM NOT DUMB.

NOT LYK YOU!
STOP STALKING MY BLOG
BCOS URE DISGUSTING ME.
AND UR FUCKING USELESS RANTINGS WONT WORK ON ME.
SO BLOODY GET A LIFE ON UR OWN
AND CHANGE UR FUCKED UP ATTITUDE.

AND YES URE A FUCKING BITCH.
I SERIOUSLY HATE YOU.

FIRST U SAID U WOULD HELP ME.
IN TH FCKING BASTARD'S SITUATION.
I THOUGHT I COULD TEL U AND JIE!
AND THEN?

LOOK AT U,
FUCK, URE SIDING HIM.
YEAHS, URE A GOOD DAUGHTER
URE THINKING FR MUM.

FORGET ME OKAY!
WHY DID U EVEN HAVE A SISTER LYK ME.
NO! WHY DID I HAVE A SISTER LYK U.
IMAGINE U WERE ME

YOU THINK I CAN STOP THINKING OF THT SITUATION
AND THEN THINK ABOUT HOW MUM FEELS.
YEAHS! I WISH!

SO JUST BLOODY GET A LIFE ON UR OWN,
STOP MSGING ME AND TRACKING WHRE I AM.
BECAUSE ITS JUST DISGUSTING.

THE WAY U THINK URE ALWAYS RIGHT,
THE WAY U SCOLD ME WHEN URE DOING TH SAME THING,
THE WAY U FCKING STOP ME FRM SPEAKING
AND THE WAY U FUCKING POINT RIGHT INTO MY FACE
AND THREATEN U'LL WHACK ME OR SMETHING.

FUCK OKAY!
YOU'RE A GREAT DAUGHTER,
YOU THINK ABOUT
MUM'S HEALTH, BUSINESS EVRYTHING!
BUT URE A FAILED SISTER!

SO BE IT IF URE READING IT NOW,
I KNW U ARE.
JUST BLOODY FCK OFF AND STOP COMING TO MY BLOG
AND THINKING U KNW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.

ITS DAMN DISGUSTING FR GOD'S SAKE
JILLIAN HOE!

Hey!:D

Yesterday's dance was super tiring
im having muscleache from the JBG D:

Today's lessons passed real fast.
Maths, mr lee didnt cme,
relief teacher was nice:D

English was drama,
Ms Ross at first scolded us,
but ended up laughing with us over our "skit"

Chinese
Phan was in sucha bad mood.
Bcause CX pranked her. retardness:O

Chemistry,
sat with YQ and YJ
cool! Their names are alike HAHAHAS
okay, YQ told me smth that freaked me out
and im stil freaking out! OMG!
And she lent me her jacket fr th whole day :D COOL BEANS

Biology,
did practical.
kinda fail laas.
Merlyn's one was a success:D

Went to amkhub after sch
Watched Socceror's Apprentice! COOL BEANS!
Haahas. it was damn nice
Petrisson Caixiong Chenyou Merlyn Me Engliang Joshua Lionel.
Engliang was damn funny.
He freaked out at th sound effect=.=
and i got freaked out by him 2 tyms.
he purposely go jerk me. WTH! :O

laughed lyk mad,
and it was super cold,
cos i passed merlyn yanqing's jacket.
:O

went home with chenyou lionel and caixiong. :O
fun fun ! and th movie is really nice:D

{♥}

F'ship(:

I love my friends:D
Especially these people:D
Avel Jann Jiyin Crystal Lionel
Dennis Joshua Chenyou Engliang Thomas Yejohn
Yanqing Elaine Merlyn Petrisson Hongkoon

I love going crazy with Yanqing,
Laughing at each other,
teasing each other about EL and YJ.
And poking her until she screams
and whacks me. Haha!

I love poking Elaine
even when she's not afraid.
intruding her territory.
And stealing her pencil and not returning to her:D

I love speaking to Jann JY Crys
Because they are good listeners.
But sometimes, i think
SPEAKING TO JANN ALONE IS BETTER:D

I love telling lionel avel hk and yj stuff
and bitching them at the same tym:D
Sometimes they bitch me back
but we stil laugh tgr at ea other:D

I love looking at Dennis kick soccer
and say that his super shuai
and he goes "jolyn is so chio"
haha! he's sucha cute friend
and i love scolding th blackguy because
he pushed MY DENNIS :D

I love going crazy with Merlyn,
laughing at her retardness
and her funny songs
"Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Just because i eat worms"

I love saying Joshua is cute,
because he really is.
Bitching Lionel with him is fun.
And looking at him get bullied
and standing up fr MY JOSHUA:D Hahas!

I love laughing at Thomas n Chenyou's retardness
and their jokes always makes me laugh
Thomas' being scared of extreme tickle,
Chenyou going "WAKA WAKA EHHHH"

I love sitting with Petrisson
when he's LONELY without Eryue bcause he's really funny
and crazy at tyms

I love talking to Engliang
and bitching him about recent events
and saying his lousy and fat, when he actually isnt
and then he goes laughing back at me

Omgosh, i love these crazy friends:D
because they're th ones that make life in school
so much better,
even when i see those people that ruins my day. :D

GOSH I LOVE THEM:D
{♥}

Yeahs,
things would be different if she never left
things would be different if you never went fr th trip

My gosh, i didnt know that
evryone felt the same way towards you until i see for myself.
I thought it was only me that you treated that way
but i was wrong.
i hope i wont be affected by you. hope
but maybe, ur impact was to hard on me,
i dnt think i'll ever let it go.

im lucky that at least i have great friends around me,
and im happy tears dont flow out of me (in public)(:
IM STRONG:D (Y)
{♥}

Hey.
Lessons today were manageable :O
Literature was cool! i sat on th cushion-ish sofa (:

Recess ate and watched th sec4s n 5s play capt ball.
Maths test on matrices was average.
Had lots of careless mistakes
but i corrected them after doing thrice.

English was normal.
Left to soccer court to watch th guys play street soccer.
And that stupid fat Bowen indian guy was there again.
And a few guys pushed Wengkeat and Joshua.
Joshua fell.
i got so angry i shouted at them,
and one of th Bowen guy standing right infront of me
stared at me, bt i stared back. asshole.

Went fr listening compre.
It was pretty easy too, but 1 or 2 tricky questions :O

Bought cup noodles
and met th guys at soccer court again.
Watched their match and talked to merlyn.
3 small boys almost hit us with a ball. GAH!
Watched fr awhile.
Chenyou was so pro (:
He blocked lyk 6 balls. (:
And he was so proud of himself! LOLS.

Went fr dance.
JibenGong sucked.
I cldnt jump up fr xiaotiao n zhongtiao ):
and i cldnt do my splits ):

Learnt our SYF dance.
Omgosh, lyk so many fenghuolun and fanshen.
So tiring :O
and th jibengong part OMGOSH!
i knw im nt gna get in this dance alr ):

im tired. ):
{♥}

Hey.
Yesterday was our 8th month anniversary(:
Talked about some senstitive issue, gosh.
i feel so guilty. sorry. ):
and also, sorry for not being able to go fr movies tgr.
ily(:
{♥}

Hey cool beans! :D

Went to help mum in th shop.
and went to meeet Lionel Cy n Avel.
Jiyin n Crystal arrived soon after.
Played some indoor badminton
and it was super difficult to play
since th ceiling was so low,
th sheltercock came right into my face lyk so quickly!
:DDD

Did matrices,
and finally i found a way on hw to solve it.
Avel teach me to use th "seven" way.
hahhas:D NOW I KNW! :D
Im clever:D

Left to hgang mall soon after,
as everyone had to leave soon.
ended up buying th JiPa:D
and went macs to chitchat,
bought a IceLemonTea and everyone snatched for it :O
That was pure evil! i didnt get a few sip!
Plus th chicken was burning my throat!

Had some talk about Crush and evrything.
And was told of sme interesting news.
Crystal, be more auto *hint*:D

Went to tak neoprints,
and it seriously sucked :O
Went to Cotton on with crys to tak a look.
and i saw a really nice blouse.

Went home with avel n crys. took 325.
AND AVEL:D
Im so honoured to be the first! HAHAS!
but its just one day :O
its okay :D im stil honoured. haha!
and avel arhs!
Do your job well,
if pressing th bell is sucha tough job,
i'll get a easier job fr you!
"wave your hands and say good bye:D" HAHA!


gosh im reading storybook to my brother,
and th words are so profound :O
{♥}

Forgive n Forget (:
im trying to be less angry(:
:DDDD:DDDD:DDDD:DDD

I just read something about
endurance is th key
now im getting angrier.
Omgosh, i wnder why i actually felt lyk
i needed them so much.
Now, i feel disgusted by myself, and them.
GOSH!

This is disgusting.
The tym when they wrote this
"I dont know how you could act like nothing happened"
Now this is th question frm me to you.
Eeew, my gosh, disgusted.
Now its everyone that im disgusted.
Maybe i shouldnt have reminded myself of th past quarrel.
Gosh, yes this is about th clique.
I dare to say it out, bcos i dnt wan to be a twosided bitch
or make you all guess if im talking about it.

maybe Crys Jiyin Weisze,
you should read about ur old posts in your blog,
and ur diaries to see wht u have said in th past.
omgosh, i feel pissed,
i gt to go and force myself to forget about it.
OMGOSH! :S
{♥}

Cool beans!
I cooked porridge today:D
For my brothers n my maid:O
Cause my maid doesnt know how to cook :O

I failed :X
The porridge was super dry,
but we finished all :D
Yipeee! At least no one puked it out! HAHAS:D
Yay im a pro:D Im a winner:D
LOLS!
im like freezing cold now.

i fell aslp with my phone in my hands,
and i had no blanket on me ):
omgosh :O

{♥}

Smile for yourself,
Not to show others:D

Smile for yourself,
Because you want to live life to the fullest:D

Smile for yourself,
Because its the best medicine to sorrow:D

Smile for yourself,
Because you look good when you smile:D

Life has to go on:D
SMILE:D dont FROWN ):
{♥}

Heyyo!:D
Cool beans!
Frazer is CoolFries! HAHAS:D
*random*

Had a nice talk with Engliang yesterday.
He's really in super bad luck.
First, his bball got confiscated. (gt it bak)
second, he lost th 65th anniversary shirt.
third, he got sent to principal office bcos of ms ros

lame lyk crazy. hahas
he's like so depressed :O

Im in th shop now.
so boringg LALALALA!
jann bought avacadaaa just now :O

and everyone wants to read my D book! LOLS:D
COOL BEANS:D

cool BEANS!:D

Heyhey!
Secondary one to three,
i've changed so drastically.

Sec1
i came into sch alone. not knwing a single person.
I cried my way to school bcos i hated th lonely feeling.
it was so scary to come into Xinmin.
I felt so lost. I kept calling my mum,
and told her i wanted to transfer to Amkss.
And i got into dance, but i wanted to transfer into Vball
but nt anymore fr now :D I LOVE XMCD:D
Kept calling my pri sch friends,
and they were really enjoying themselves D:

orientation, got to know Dom n Crys.
After that got to knw Jiyin n Jann.
Got closed to Jiyin n Jann.
Followed by Dom Crys n WS.
We bcame a clique/ Bitch Gang.
And alot of ppl hated us :O
Orientation did th Spongebob Campfire song.
and it was so cool
i wore a Pompom skirt :D

I guess i was really bitchy:D
and i mean it in th bad bad way.
I really loved talking to Wanting last time:D
we were sitting tgr, partners:D

Homecoming,
got to know Jerry and Donovan more(:
Nice people.
AND JERRY HAD A CRUSH ON ME:D
Cute laas ! HAHA

Donovan had a crush on jann, then weisze. :O

Crystal looked damn retarded in SEC1 ! LOLS
Dominique was sucha joker. she started her presentation with a bang.
Dominique "BANG! (HAHHAHAHAHHA)" *class quiet*
LOLS! hilarious.
Jiyin's first impression was,
Jann's little follower,
but nw she's sucha crazy bitch:D

trios was Me Weisze n Jann.
And th guys were Jerry Donovan Joseph
and we always went to Jann's house fr PARTY:D
got to knw clinton/huiting

sec1 was th tym when Clique were really close,
especially during EOY:D
those times after exams when we sat in class and chat

hated Avel at that tym,
bcos he made me cry in school fr th FIRST TYM IN MY LIFE :O
he said i was only a MEDIA HEAD
and i was being too involved in class matters.
Thanks avel! i was so hurt! ):

The TEN SISTERS LOLS!
Alina Crystal Dominique Jolyn Jann
Jiyin Jieling Wanting Weisze Vivien


sec2, had quarrels/ huge ones and small ones.
Most people should have been happy to see our clique quarrel.
since many disliked us. ALOT.
but sec2 was th tym when i grew alot mre mature:D
got to know/understand many people
especially th NT guys and edel:D
and i realised true & untrue friends
and i really grew alot in sec2,
it was th year where i experienced th most things in my life

I met a very good friend,
whom i really miss now.
and that person really affected me alot.
its cool to knw that we actually were that close:D
THANKS FR TH MEMORIES:D
SNK HAMSTER! :D

I got close to LYX,
a total bastard.
I realised that Crystal and Weisze were such bitches.
They tried to trick me,
and said bad things about me at LYX
And LYX was such an asshole.

and he cheated ALL our feelings.
ME Edel Crystal Weisze
seriously, bad memories
Sorry Jerry ):

Huge Quarrel with th clique,
and i got really close to Jann.
i realised who were th real friends, and who weren't.
i got alot more better in judging people after this incident.
and im really good at observing ppl now:D
that u have to admit. :D

Weisze's bdae celebration.
Struggling bwn L n J
bcos i had to choose btwn
sitting with one of them during th Movie.
ended up sitting with jerry
and thats th first tym he held my hands:D

GAMES MARATHON DAY!
Had so much fun with
Alina Audris Crystal Dominique Jiahui
Jieling Jiyin Wanting Weisze Vivien
(sorry if i missed out anyone)
We won first champions:D
and we cried our hearts out! :D

we were really bonded
and th NA NT guys were freaking out on th Final match
bcos i was really pissed
and i was getting violent:D

Got tgr with Louis.
i really regret
putting him after clique.
and he was really nice guy.
He met me evryday,
treated me really well.
and i was almost th most impt to him.
but, i guess i wasn't good enough fr him.
since i really disappointed him n myself.
im really sorry.
and im really very thankful fr hw u treated me.
i didn't realise u were always thre fr me,
until i read my old diaries:D

He went to Dom's church with me,
and he looked aft me. :D
cool beans! :D
He used to fetch me arnd Hgang and sweat lyk crazy
It was really WONDERFUL memories, really(:
Now he dont like me alr :O
You'll always be remembered & treasured(:

Chalet at Jiyin's family's:D
and talked alot. there were happy tyms/bad tyms
Class Chalet. Happy Sad :D
Lionel was bullied :O

191109:D
got tgr with Jerry,
and stil together(:
He gave me:
a musical pig:D
sweets/chocolate from europe/hongkong
mask
bag
shoeboxes
soft toy w/ ILY:D
and smemre:D

It was a WOW day.
bcos i didnt knw how we really gt together,
but he was really nice. he treated me real well,
before n on this day.:DDDDDD

Dance trip to China:D
had so much fun there with
Wanting Alina Daphne Jiahui n Jiyin:D
they were really nice.
and we talked and spent alot of tym tgr:D
I SAW SNOWFLAKES:D

and merlyn was really scared of me at that tym,
she had to sit with me during meals,
and she had to bear with th fright! LOLS
talked to amanda n merlyn w/ jiyin
during th last night at China.
Chat for really long
and got closer to them:D
LOVE XMCD♥

Lost th ring D:
and bought new one.
Jerry went to Europe(:

sec3, best year fr me,
since i got really close to a few guys n girls:D
Lionel Chenyou Thomas Yejohn Engliang Avel :D
Merlyn Amanda ClaudiaTan Peijun Zoey QianQian
Juniors Seniors of Dance:D

They're really nice people.
Caixiong Petrisson Dennis Mabu CM are really nice people:D

Kaleidoscope changed me,
Dancers bonded alot more (:
I love sec3
but it feels like we're gna graduate soon,
and we're gna step down from dance D:

We had so many intensives:D
and th dancers were really close:D
went swimming tgr n kiteflying.
i really loved them:D
ALOT! they're ppl i can really trust
bcos they're always there:D

im looking frward to "Prom night" :D
Cool beans.

i loved Jerry's JuneChalet
bcos i poured my emotions to Edel :D
and i loved her so much :D
Got to knw Gladys n Liyin, Nice people
at first i thought they were kind of to themselves
but my impression of them changed after tht day :D
they're really nice people! :D

i cried like mad, edel comforted me.
i feel so embarrassed cause all th guys saw.
and i did smth bad. but it was only that time

and jerry was really sad at that tym,
i drank alot,
and Edel comforted me,
and she pushed Jerry away and asked him to go away
Plus i did smthing bad, and that made him really angry.
So he left me alone.
I walked so fast at th park
edel n Jerry had to run to catch up
while th others were at th back :O

but we spent alot of tym tgr:D
happy! :D
and we walked in th park tgr,
and he was really nice! :D
his dad sent me home:D

Dance camp'10 :D
I loved my group members.
They're really nice.
and they go all out fr th games:D
and they won 2nd place:D
of course with a good Leader lyk me! :D
haha! nahs, im being retarded :O

we didnt sleep much during th night,
and we went to stargaze:D
Amanda didnt want to slp,
and she didnt allow us to slp too.
So we chitchat about
HongZhaBor n Private issues:O

I really loved Dance alot after th camp:D

went fr kiteflying with dancers
and i was suffering frm some virus at that time,
felt really bad and didnt tak much photos.
bt really enjoyed myself with them:D

Small/Huge quarrel
I feel really evil saying those stuff,
but its just how i feel
and wht i've observed.
Even though i knw hw it feels,
to be lonely/outcasted.
but i just cant be a two-sided bitch
and face you smiling right. so yeahs,
its just me. you stil have many friends.
life goes on.

Talk with Mdm Liew
Motivated me to listen in class,
i guess im more attentive in class already.

Drifted apart frm J.
but now, i guess we're okay alr :D
(LOOK AT THIS LA CLIQUE! LOLS)

Oh yeahs, Sushi Buffet.
Weisze feels credited.
Okay, ate alot. talked and took many photos.
really funny :O
AVACADAAAAAAAAAA lols! jann is retarded :O

omgosh, i realised i changed alot,
i knw alot more mature:D
but alot more bitchy:D LOLS
but not in th bad way i guess :O
And i have alot of new friends:D
NA NT EXP :D YAY! COOL BEANS
NA NT ppl are nice okay! :D

And im talking to frazer now! YAY:D (Y)
Hahas, he's so funny :D

i think this post is cool! :D
And i bet u had a fun time reading:D
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Hey!
This is my 300th post:D
COOL BEANS! i didnt knw i posted so many:O
Today's lessons were nice.
Because it was kind of slack.
Mothertongue- Listening compre 9/10:D
PE-volleyball.

English-Sexuality Education (Fr our group)
Ms rose/ros was damn funny, doing those funny voice.
And Engliang, Caixiong n Pet went to Principal office
Just because they didnt listen =-=

Recess-YOGHURT:DPASTEw/CHICKENCHOP
Maths-Mr lee thought us some weird thing, that i couldnt understand at all :O
Die, but chenyou used a clever method:D coool beannnns! :D

Went fr lunch at KFC hougangpoint.
and went to street soccer court.
Stupid black tall fat guy, bloody smoker.
he go push Dennis, i damn piss off,
kept scolding n scolding.
wish he cld understand Chinese so I wldn't have to explain to him in tamil! :@
damn angry la! stupid, act like a big gangster.
Stupid asshole. but there was this Bowen guy,
Quite goodlooking and his soccer was pro! cool! :D

went to accompany Jann n Avel cut hair.
and talked at the voiddeck
we were so despo fr coins bcos we wanted to buy drinks at VendingMachine.

Talked alot, and it was really hilarious.
Jann n Avel come over to my house outside,
and Jann went to my house fr toilet. lols!

talked til 6.35pm and they left home. :O
LALALALA! :D

im so happy today,
firstly, J and I sat near ea other :O and he msged me,
aft lyk dk hw long, bt stil happy(:
secondly, H looked at me, and i looked at him :O
thirdly, i got to vent my anger:D Jann n Avel listened! :D

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Diary♥

Just read my diaries.
the past few were so retarded.
my language was so weird, i feel so tweeeet.
im disgusted :S

but after reading,
i realised a lot of stuff.

first, it was about friendship.
i didnt realise how close th clique was.
And how much i treasure f'ship.

and how much i felt it was my fault during th past quarrel,
but nw, i dnt feel that way.
maybe im just getting more stubborn.
i just feel that i wasn't mostly at fault.

Jann was my best listener/secret keeper
Crys was th crazy nice bitch
Jiyin was th best dance pal
Dom was th cute funny joker
Ws was th close sister

and i didnt realise how close i was with a few ppl.
LYX, DON, JOCH.
LYX.. bad memories.
DON.. good memories
JOCH.. good memories.

but well, lyx is one of th forgotten once,
maybe bcos the tym he knew me,
was th tym when i focused a lot more on a better/close friend
that is also lost now. its weird to realise so many lost friends ):
especially when its those that are really important(you know who.)

Second, relationships.
J, L, D. omgosh,
i feel lyk i've actually been rather lucky
that there were so many nice people in my life.
especially these 3 nice people.
i shall keep all this to myself.

Third, myself.
i realised i changed so drastically.
after reading those diaries,
i realised i changed, alot.
maybe now, i've become alot more mature?.
more spoilt/insensitive
less of a good friend.
i dont know if thats mature the right word to use,
but its really a drastic change, maybe after i've been thru so much.

omgosh, i really love th tyms in th past,
those nice moments(:
{♥}

Heyyo.
Today's lessons were extremely boring
Chinese lesson we did Listening Compre.
And i got fullmarks:D
clever me! (Y)

went to amkhub with:
Merlyn Yejohn Chenyou Joshua n Lionel.
had lunch @ Pepperlunch
chitchat gossiped. blahblah, as usual:D
lionel n joshua went back first.

went to voiddeck with Yejohn Merlyn n Chenyou
talked mad, and MERLYN KOH WAS TRAUMATISED.
sorry merlyn, told them abt th 18yrs old thing. lols!
i totally forgot it wasnt meant to be told. SORRY):

my mum was pissed off and she msged me to go home,
didnt leave even aft30mins, and she msged me
"You shit!"
lols, they all saw and laughed lyk mad. :O
rushed home,
Merlyn koh was so retarded,
i went up th bus with her math book,
and she ran to chase up with me,
had to press th bell in order fr th door to open,
passed her her book and she looked so happy. lols.

on th bus, did afew questions on Chemistry with Chenyou :D

{♥}

dumb

it was that hard for you to walk over to talk to me,
instead u stood behind th low wall.
even when we were sitting right opp ea other,
you didn't bother to talk just bcos they were bside you.

PAINFUL D:

cramps are irritating,
cramps kill me!
i hate this tym of th month GAHHH! D:


omgosh, today was hilarious
when Zoey burst into laughter when a guy kicked th soccer ball
right into D's ass. :O

and merlyn koh wrote things on a paper,
and showed me n jiyin.
we were sitting at th back of th lorry
while merlyn was infront. LOLS. crazy merlyn :O

thanks (:

Hey,
i feel really messed up :O
my life, my decision, my choice.

stop teling me wht to do.
i feel more lyk threatened.
i believe i can make th right decision.
at least trust me. i knw wht im doing and thinking.
the way u ppl tel me abt me n him makes me really influenced
and more confused.
but i knw u're trying to be thre to giv advice
before i do smthing thats gna mak me regret
fr my whole life.
thanks
this is to clique and dnt feel offended(:
{♥}

hey.

lessons were normal as usual,
went to national museum. and it very boring. :O
went fr lunch and slacked in dance,
had a really bad stomachache.

went dwn with zoey to walk arnd,
and bought yoghurt to eat.
left to bball court,
and saw a few ppl playing bball n soccer. :O
went to buy another yoghurt after that.
and i couldnt finish it. D:

went back to dance room,
and watched soccer.
left hme.

omg, bad stomachache.
{♥}

i guess you lik to spend tym with others
instead of me huh? well then, frget it,
anyway its been months since we last went out.
maybe we should just end this?..

heyyo.
today was a PAINFUL day D:

went to school and had a splendid literature lesson,
but gosh! i havent hand in my Fiveways to kill a men worksheet D:
we were continuing on our topic on Mental Illness.
and i suggested we go fr a class outing at WoodBridge :D
ms lie's considering :D HAHA!
and the two malay teachers wana go too! HAHAS COOL BEANS!

biology, did some practical with merlyn.

recess

maths was on tan sin cos,
it was confusing, and boring.
gosh, mrleekm treated us lyk 7yr olds! GAH!

skipped chinese,
and went out fr lunch with
Yejohn Chenyou Lionel Merlyn Yanqing Elaine Weisze
it was damn funny,
tht Yejohn's god dad bought chicken wings again :O

went for chinese oral,
idk if i flunked it or did well,

first question, i named out two points, elaborated and she asked me 2nd question.
2nd question, i named out two points, elaborated and she asked me 3rd question.
last question, i said i want to go Cambodia, and why. and she said im done=.=
WTH! th whole process was lyk wht? 3mins or less?
i guess they're rushing home or smthing :O

went fr dance,
DSA. Jibengong!

JIBENGONG
was damn painful!
and i finally succeeded in doing XiaYao.
and it was lyk so painful,
i kept forcing myself to do,
and my legs shivered lyk mad!

went home with Jann Jiyin Merlyn.
took Merlyn's Ahgong pickup truck! :D
{♥}

relationships

Never trusted you after that incident,
i guess you want to know how i feel.
Dnt hav to act like nthing happens,
since you already knw.

Plus, i hate backstabbers, two-sided people, liars.
And u fulfiled all the criteria.
Isn't it great to know that someone u trusted ONCE,
was trying to drag th f'ship back,
while on th other hand,
talks about you and makes ur friends say things about you.

and its even more cool,
when u tel them to ignore me,
while u walk over to ask me join "us".

the childish-ness.
maybe its just me.
but nthing wil change btwn u and th rest,
that u can assure.

lets compare,
who has th longest hair,
who has th prettiest shoes,
who has more friends,
who has more money.
whatever, compare(:

fun fun, to realise that,
i DID lose trust.
and i DO have alot of things bottling up,
and nw i've told evryone, only those that i trust.
cool beans!
ur friends are knwn thru me
my friends are nt knwn thru u
YIPPEEEE (Y)

and to ♥:
lets hope nothing goes wrong
and it'll be 8months and more.
although, im stil wavering. (L)
i'll love you if you do so too! (:
but i'll hope you'll understand me more,
bcos you dnt seem to care at all :O

COOL! blog is just lyk my diary:D

Hey.
Went for th marriott bbq with ws yesterday.
took photos with alot of them.
and had some fun. :O
white pearls=.= eeew. they're sour! :O

came home to teach jiaquan chinese.
DAMN IRRITATING!
i took 1whole hour to teach him this sentence
这是一个书包"
WAHH! damn irritated=.=
anyway, i succeeded in the end :D
:DDDDDDDDDDD


Today:D
went to school,
assembly was boring,
we were commenting about th diploma student, hahhas.
first 3 lessons passed quickly.
and went fr recess.
i wana go HeBei, but i have to find some1 to help me look aft my buddy D:
gosh! i wana go i wana go ! D:

after school went to play soccer with
Dennis Yejohn Thomas Lionel Joshua Chenyou
they kick th ball lyk damn hard and scary
and i was th goal keeper! CRAZY!
Mad funny!
yejohn kicked th ball right into my leg "muscle"
lols! at least i blocked lyk 3 / 4 goals :D hahhahah!
and i scored 1 goal :D
PRO ME!!! YAY ME! :D

went to meet jann jiyin crystal and avel with thomas yejohn n chenyou.
left to macs and had our lunch, JANN TREAT:D
talked, chitchat lyk mad, and laughed lyk crazy, SCANDALOUS! :O
HAHHAHA!

left home with crys n yejohn n avel! :O
saw th bowen malay guy,
called crystal and she went crazy. lols. expected.

junqiang regrets not going bbq with me!
HAH! in ur face! told u u shld have gone!
muahahs, he's lyk regretting lyk crazy :O
{♥}

Hey!
Went to eat after school with Jann Jiyin n Crystal
Left to school to send jann off to her oral examinations,
as usual! she was gng over paranoid! LOLS

Went to buy drinks and put our bags in th canteen,
and went to bball court to look fr yejohn thomas dennis n co.
Went back to school bball court
and watched their soccer match with Yongguan Xinghong and two other guys.

Jiyin n I went to accompany avel n crys up to their "remedial"
with Ms tee, and she's damn cool :D
admire her! LYK ALOT LAA! :D

After that, waited fr jann
and we left to jann's clubhouse
after wasting our tym walking to Bowen sec (HINT CRYSTAL!)
took cab to jann's house,
and we went to th "READING ROOM",
we thought we cld sing Karoke, bt only booking fr Sat Sun.
so we chitchat and laughed lyk mad.

after that started on our main priority
JOLYN'S PROPEGANDA! LOLS!
it was damn dumb, but i always hit th BULL'S EYE!
even though, yeahs, its rather bad,
but its jus my opinions:D
and i've been through it too, lala:D
whatever, i'm just pissed :O
they were laughing lyk mad at me laas.
and they freaked me out when they were lyk so JIDONG!

and i felt that they were gna jump on me or smth, lols!
damn funny, joey came after that while their mum went fr gym.
got kicked out by th security bcos sme1 else wans to use it.

went outside to continue,
im lyk so influencial, thank you :D
just bcos i realise/see things alot faster than u ppl :D
im clever! :D HAHA!

had to leave cause it was late,
so went to rivervale mall to buy some food and took bus home
while jiyin left fr tuition.
stopped at Punggol Park and bought DUCKRICE for bro n sis! :D
{♥}

Hey!
today's lessons were boring
biology mr leefy didnt teach.
kinda confused bcos i didnt understand wht th other teacher was saying.

other lessons were normal.
went to meet mdmliew.
Joey n I were laughing at mad at those stupid Singapore Records
such as most no. of ppl holding a balloon doing mass exercise =.=
lols. retarded lyk mad

she said
"guys are stupid n immature
wait til they get out of NS then they'll change,
and that's when u can start a r'ship"

went macs with lionel thomas crys yejohn
lala! had fun playing cards with them,
and they kept smacking my burger! :O
and i kept trashing them! :D
ROYAL FLUSH! AHAHHA! :D

walked home with crys
and we accompanied yejohn to wait fr his bus
and he kept asking us nt to miss him too much

{♥}

hey.
lessons were boring as usual,
but more tiring today
because i slept an hour later than usual. :O

went to coffeeshop with
Yejohn Crystal Chenyou Lionel and Thomas
Had our lunch and left fr dance.
Didn't do splits because i really cant do it!!

BUT i did xiaotiao :D
and i did datiao, qianjing
And i lyk th short dance, very nice loh :O
hahahas! and th ti chen was nice too :O

merlyn almost lose her voice. haha!
took her lorry home again, and we sat behind AGAIN :D

Today's dance feels so weird without the seniors there ):
But claudia n wernchieh came to visit

{♥}

I think i'm having bad moodswings lately,
I'm getting super pissed with everyone,
and i think its really bad now.

I'm like so angry at every tiny little things,
and i feel damn moody :O

r'ship/f'ship. gosh, both are ruined. badly

Hey :(
Today is a sad day.
Firstly, Dance seniors are stepping down D:
Kaleidoscope was th last tym we dance tgr.
we had a farewell party fr them today,
and peijun was cute enough to mak a video fr them.
had lots of fun taking photos n talking with them
Xianting Wernchieh Jiahui n Claudia cried.

Secondly,
i broke my uncle's FuLuShou.
I'm so damn sorry :(
It wasn't on purpose.

LASTLY!
Jannette(my maid) is leaving tonight,
and i cant send her off bcos i have hmewrk to do,
and i dnt wan to tak th bastard's car,
AND i dnt want to cry at th airport
omgosh im so gna miss her ! D:

hope she'll fair well in her studies. :(
hope she wont forget us ! D:

IM GNA MISS AND LOSE SO MANY PPL ! D:
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heyy!
went to jann's house today with jiyin
took so many photos using jann's mac book.
ahaha.
funny lyk crazy. those bloody effects

hahahas!
met merlyn at daiso and went to eat tgr,
left with jann n jiyin while merlyn went to ntuc to buy some things.

went back to jann's house and watched Alice in Wonderland. :O
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FATS!

argh!
after a whole month of 6meals per day,
the fats are coming to haunt me! D:
GOSHHH!! FATTSS!
wht to do?
hw do i get rid of those fats that keep stalking me.
ARGHHH! D:

hey!
Tday was not so awesome.
Went to th shop in th mrning with mum n jm jq.
helped out and left to crys house fr lit project.

did some annotation.
and found a few poems.
bought some drinks and chitchat awhile.

talked to weisze on th way home.

janet's leaving D: (she's my maid)
i'm so gna miss her! omgosh D:
Now there's a new maid called Laura.
she's lyk kinda anti-social? but..
hope we'll get tgr real well...

{♥}

i got to catch eclipse soon!
someone owes me movieeeee! :O
and i wana watch nanny mcpheee D:

is it over?

Why? When i feel like putting in effort to save us..
You changed..
It feels so different.
Sometimes, i feel lik i need u again,
but you're nt there anymore.

you used to spend so much time thinking of hw to mak me happier,
giving me surprise n presents.
i use to knw/feel that im the most important to you
and i knew hw much your love was.
now?... i dont know about that anymore...

Heyyo! (:

Kaleidoscope♥ :D
-Teachers kept scolding us @ backstage.
-Weisze Crys Cy bought flowers[:
-Merlyn bought a DXLR :D
-Fun time and i'm so gna miss th seniors
especially xianting:D
th best camp leader ever:D
-talked alot with edel n vanessa:D

and wernchieh:D
im gna miss her too,
she and her nags! hahas!
but im gna run into her house one day,
and demand my macs meal :D

{♥}

heyyo! :D
went to Vjc early in th mornin fr rehearsal n test lighting:D
had fun with jingyi n liya doing stupid things. lols!
FRAGILE PLEASE HANDLE WITH CARE!!! :D

Dance full-dress rehearsal was a failure.
i knelt down on my pants! and i forgot dance move.
went back to th room and i was super discouraged.
felt lyk giving up.
and when it was real performance tym.
my leg n hands trembled lyk crazy!

i couldnt even stand firm on th floor.
omgosh.
luckily my TingGu was a great success:D
Hetangyuese, i knelt on th pants agaain.
ended up slower tempo than others D:

Left outside n Wernchieh made me jiyin n claudia cry
Jiyin defintely improved during th performance.
hahas. wernchieh was so happy and she teared. lols:D

did our xiaocao=.=
and laughed lyk crazy.
cheered fr ZLS and told her we love her! HAHA!

im so gona miss our seniors D:
Xianting Wernchieh Jiahui Francine
Claudia Vanessa Yuting Sarah Pohhui D:
i love them :D

KALEIDOSCOPE:D
{♥}

Heyyo.
Today was kinda boring.
I was super tired as usual.
maybe bcos i slept at 11.30, ltr than usual.

went to school and had assembly.
today is Ncc day :O
had our lessons.
and hongkong ppl came in during biology lesson.
mr lee was so nice. n his lessons were so nice.
th hk ppl laughed too. hahas:D
had eng after that.
spent 45mins letting them intro themselves:X

Marco n Stephanie sat with me n pet.
and they were so hilarious.
mabellyn n stephanie were going crazy over th Korea singers.
lols~ and marco thinks he's better looking than LeeMinHo ._.

recess boring.
lessons boring.
Hmt funny. hahas!
phan was distracted by facebook so many tyms.
hahas! and she was talking abt Restaurant City aft that. hahas.

left to hougang mall fr lunch
and had pepper lunch with yejohn thomas lionel n cy
weisze came in and steal food.
that was irritating lo!

lala. chitchat with th guys until 5+pm.
n left to buy things fr dance n snacks.
back hme. gng paranoid over Kaleidoscope which is tmr D:
Scared laaa! D:

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